Sometimes it takes a lot of time for me to think about myself. Who I really am? What am I going to be in the next few years? What do I really want in this life?
Those questions make me think more on this life. About my past, my future.. And sometimes there are too many choices to choose. This variety gives me chances to make the rightest choice among of those options. If i take the wrong step, I'm going to fall into a big dark hole that takes me time to climb up back.
So bad, most of the time I couldn't decide what's the best that I want. I usually will get confused with the decisions that I made. I tend to regret it when it comes to failure, as if there's no way out of it. This kind of feeling always come to my thought and I'm sick of it. What makes me feel that way? No answer. Day by day I learn that my decisions and my choices not only affect me alone, but also the peoples around me who loves me, cares me and needs me.
I just hope that I can make the right decision and know what I really want some day.
