I always wonder what is going to be if everyone has no problem at all and just live in happiness all the way. As long as you live as a normal human being, there's no possible way you can run away from PROBLEMS. You may solve it, but not totally avoid it. The people who says that he or she has no problem is the unstable one. It might be something wrong somewhere with that person, isn't it?.. 
Sometimes we just keep complaining when the matters occur and if it gets even worse, some of us shall easily gets upset and loose consideration (what language am i using?? haha). Owh please.. Come off it- its pointless to be in state of misery while you can do something at least a prayer. Seek for God's guidance, Insyaallah.. it will be easier to get through it.
Don't put the blame on yourself nor anyone else if something happens, the matter of fact is, its just a reason for Allah to TEST us. Its just similarly like the time we were in school.. you can't directly go for SPM without UPSR and PMR. you have to take one after another consequently to be as how you are now... Thus, those test indeed something to make us greater and better. One day, will it even matter? And there will be another obstacles to face too, maybe bigger things.
As in my case, there are so much changes in my life starting from my childhood until now, and i believe that today's going to be just nothing much than a historical story of my life which the author is Allah and I'm the main character. The character that keeps on playing his role in the life until the death comes.
Even though all those things about my childhood has become just a story by now, I still can take it as a guide for me to face another bigger things in my adult life. It's something what I call learning from the past. What I've been trough in my childhood life, now is a memory and I'm learning from it. It may sounds like my childhood was freaky, but yes, it was. I didn't have many friends except for my elder sister and a younger brother. But it wasn't the matter as there were worse things happened in my life. And now, it's the time for me to put my life on the right track. There's no time to turn back, I'm on the acceleration lane and ready to speed up fast.
Hope to be strong and stronger in my upcoming days..
